The weeks are still zooming by. As I look ahead at my calendar I am eagerly anticipating Thanksgiving and Christmas celebrations begging the time to slow down just a bit. There are quiet moments when I am on a bus, walking down the street, or crawling into bed where I find myself viewing my life through a lens, pinching myself to make sure I am aware that this is my life. The week concluded with "Friday Fun Day" in my classes. I hasten the students through the lessons on Friday in order to have a little running around the classroom. It is helpful to watch them laugh and play. It often reminds me that they are only six year olds.
At the end of the day Natalie and I walked to "And the Twelve," our coffee shop. On the way we found a lovely market and meandered through neighborhoods that were spotted with houses rather than large apartments. This stroll through the local neighborhoods sparked my reflection for the weekend. The relationship between capitalistic culture that breeds consumerism, "Christmas" spirit, and affectionate ties. As the night drew to a close with good friends, milk tea, and Christmas I was brought to tears of joy for a new community that I feel so close and a slight pang for new holiday traditions.
Saturday I woke up and made my way back to Seoul to reunite with an old college friend, Alyssa. Like me, Alyssa is teaching in Korea. She is a vibrant women with a love for Korean pop culture. She educated me on a Korea that I am not familiar with. Alyssa's love for K-pop and passion for performing lead her to audition for a musical promotion a local tv station was hosting. Thus, on Saturday I was able to watch her and a friend film. Here is the final product. Great job Alyssa!
In addition to being with Alyssa in the city, I was shopping and meeting up with friends from Cheongju. Throughout the afternoon I was taken by all of the people on the streets, the shopping malls and advertisements. It was not new to me for it permeates much of
Korea. However, it made me feel isolated in many ways. I would waffle between the desire to purchase a few gifts for myself, after all it is my birthday and Christmas soon, and disdain for a culture that resembles the States and so many others in an artificial happiness. This consumer happiness is so engrained that it has been hard for me to view it with a analytical eye. During my time here so far I have enjoyed many trips, dinners out and a luxurious life style. Doesn't that place me in the throngs that capitalism desire to continue advancement. Furthermore, I was enamored by all of the people. The vast number of people are fun to watch and also remind me that life is about learning from one another and being open. It made me desire to be able to interact with the community in a more integrated way. All of these thoughts, and many more, were swimming in my head as a friend made the comment, "Isn't that the life in the city, being completely surrounded by people but feeling all alone." That was it... the connection I was missing the link that helped me bridge the gap between what I was experiencing, my outside perception of people in the masses to the reality that identity does not come through those around us or the materialism we engage in rather from within.
On Sunday I was greeted with a vastly different experience. I attended my worship service and spent the rest of the day with friends playing games, talking, laughing and discussing intentional communities. The difference of fulfillment between Saturday and Sunday was not in the people I was with rather the activities we were doing. Saturday was fun, but Sunday was a day where I was just present. I was not asked to buy, I was not encouraged that my happiness came from a shirt, shoe, hat or make-up. I was reminded that my life should be rooted in God the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. The blessing of the church community helped me to reach within myself, reminded me to ground my thoughts in the Lord, and encouraged me to strive to break the confines of materialism. It also drew my mind to a portion of a blog I read my first few days in Korea. The blog was written by another young women in reflection of her first month in Korea and helpful pointers. Within the blog she stated, ""The stronger, deeper, and more numerous your affective ties, the better." These past few weeks but especially today have been testament to this statement. The people I have met in Korea have made moving here as comfortable as moving anywhere, perhaps even more comfortable. They offer friendship, laughter, advice, an ear and love. When moments become difficult, it has been these "affectionate ties" that have made me walk on not the false promises of buying something new.
These reflections possess me with the opportunity to truly create a Thanksgiving and Christmas that is about giving thanks and spreading love. Not one that is wrapped in a bow with a price tag, rather one that is a hug, a laugh, a smile, a note.